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08 July 2009 @ 09:26 am
Author: [info]claudia_lexan
Fandom: Supernatural
Word Count: 2,049
Rating: PG-13
Notes: Thank you to my beta Mago186.
Notes: Crossver with the movie junior
Notes: This is set around the time that Sam decided that Stanford was a good thing.
Disclaimer: These are not characters of my own creation
Summary: After a curse and a night of sex with his brother Dean falls pregnant. Only Sam doesn't remember that night or the curse

part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 part 5 part 6 part 7 A part 7 B part 8 part 9 part 10 part 11a part 12 Part 13


“Why?”  Sam asked.



“Why what?” Dean prompted as he sat down on the bed, resting his back against the bed’s small headboard in an attempt to ease the growing pain in his back.



“Why did you leave me, after you promised to give me another chance?”



“I didn’t promise you anything Sam.  I told you repeatedly that a relationship between us would never work.  You refused to listen to me when I told you that a family life just wasn’t possible.  When I asked you if you would still be there for me if there were no baby, you told me you’d still be at Stanford.”



“I had gotten back some forgotten memories through a serious of dreams.  My emotions were all over the place.  I meant to tell you that I would still be at Stanford, but you would be with me.  You never gave me the chance to tell you.”



“You went from denial to planning a future for our child.  You ignored what I wanted.”



“I made plans for our future as a family.  You were included in those plans.”



“You never mentioned my name.  You made all of those plans for a normal family when we can never be one.”



“I know I focused a little too much on the normal family life, but how can that be a bad thing?  We can both give the baby the life we never had.”  He knew that he kept telling Dean about the normal family life, but he wanted it so very badly.  He didn’t want his child to learn about the supernatural from real life experiences.



“How many times do I have to tell about the YED before you actually listen?  We can’t have a normal family life.”



“We can, it just takes a little effort.”



Rubbing small circles on his baby bump in an effort to calm his active son, Dean replied, “It has taken a huge amount of effort just to get though the last few months.  I have had to listen to dad’s snide remarks about my weight.  I have put up with rumours that I have lost interest in the hunting business.  Giving our child a normal life would be possible, but it would come with a severe price.”


“It’s a price I would be willing to pay.”



“Can you cut off all contact with your friends and family?  Would you change your name?  Could you deny who you really are just to give our child a normal childhood?”






“Liar! You wouldn’t be able to quit college.  You could never give up on those friends you have.  Even if you did walk away from your life now, it would be half-hearted.  You would end up bitter.”



“We can still be together as a family.”



“Why would we even attempt to be a family when all we have in common is our child?  You have seen what happens to parents who stay together for the sake of a kid.  It never works out and it always ends badly.”



“It can be different for us.  We could be the couple that succeeds.”



“You don’t love me Sam.  How can we make it as a couple or a family if you don’t love me?”



Dean, I do love you. I always have.  I’ll admit that when I came to see you at that motel I was more interested in getting answers from you.   I wanted you to tell me that those dreams were real.  I know I could have reacted better than I did with the news about the pregnancy.  There are so many things that I could have done differently.  When you left me at that motel room, I was angry, but I realized something.    I love you Dean and I can’t spend my life without you.”



Eyes red from the tears he refused, to let fall Dean replied, “That nice declaration of love isn’t going to change anything Sam.  The curse is still in place.”



“We can still be together.”  



“No we can’t.”



“Maybe if we tell dad about the baby and the curse he would help us find a way to stay together.”



“Fuck Sam! Just how naïve are you?  This baby, no matter how much it is wanted and loved, is a result of a demon’s curse.  Dad’s first reaction will be to find a way to get this baby out of me.  He won’t even consider our baby to be a gift because demons don’t pull shit like this.”



“Dad would accept our baby.”



“No, he wouldn’t.  Dad would just see this as an attempt by the demon to get to him.  He wouldn’t accept our child.”



“If we explained the nature of the curse to him, he would accept us.  He could help find a way for us to be together.”



“Since when have you had so much faith in what our dad can do?”  Dean could still remember the many arguments Sam had with their dad so Sam’s sudden faith in the man was unnerving.



“Even if you don’t think dad would be willing to help us with the curse, he should know about our child.”



“Why should he know?”



“He is our father.”



“Do you honestly think that is a good enough reason to tell him about our child?  You do remember how well he reacted to the whole college thing.  Just how well do you think he will react to this?”



“He will accept us.  He will do everything he can to help us.”



“So you’re going to tell him that we had sex on a regular basis.  Will you tell him that we sometimes fucked each other so hard that we both walked awkwardly the next day?  Will you tell him that every time he left us alone we were all over each other?  Just how are you going to tell him about our child?”



“I’ll tell him that our child was conceived out of love, but a curse is what made it possible.”



“Dad isn’t going to pat either of us on the back and offer his congratulations.   He will see this as being wrong.  I will not let you risk our child’s life for that.”



“Don’t I have an equal say in all of this?” Sam asked.  He could understand why Dean had reservations about telling their dad about the baby, but he didn’t want to argue with his brother about the insecurities and worries he had concerning their child.  He wanted their dad to know he was going to be a grandpa.



“I don’t care how you keep phasing it; dad is never going to know about our child.”



“We will have to tell him Dean.  We can’t hide the existence of our child from him.”  



“I know dad will find out about the baby.  I know we can’t keep it a secret.  I just want our child to have a chance at life first.”



“How long do we have to wait before we can tell dad?”



“I can’t answer that Sam.”  Usually Dean wasn’t so talkative about personal subjects, but pregnancy had changed him.



“We can wait.”



“When do you have to go back to college” He knew that Sam wouldn’t be staying with him for too long.  He wanted top know how long Sam’s stay was so he could prepare for it.




“I did think about going back to Stanford after three weeks, but I can’t leave you or our baby.  I can take college courses online.”



“You are not going take college courses online.  You didn’t take those extra credit assignments just to give it all up.  You should be at college, enjoying all of those parties and easy women.  You don’t pass up on college just because of a baby.”



“Why don’t you come back to Stanford with me?  You could raise our child while I attend classes.  You could have a normal life and be happy.”  As soon as the words had left his mouth, he knew that it had been the wrong thing to say.



“I’m happy with the life I have,” Dean retorted harshly.



“Don’t I have a say in the type of environment our child gets raised in?  I don’t want our child to have the life we did.  I want our child to have a normal upbringing.  I don’t want our child to learn how to shoot a gun when their just five years old.  How are you going to give our child a normal life when you refuse to come back to Stanford with me?”



“I really appreciate the confidence you have in my abilities as a parent,” Dean said sarcastically.  “When dad spent huge amounts of time away on his hunts, who do you think looked after you?  If dad had been left to look after you all by himself, things would have turned out differently.”



“You can’t raise our child alone.  You can’t cut me out of our child’s life.”



Sam, I don’t want to cut you out of this child’s life, but this isn’t going to work.  Your returned memories are not a permanent thing.  I can’t make any long terms plans for our future with that hanging over our heads.  You do deserve to be a part of our child’s life, but we can’t plan things for a future that just won’t happen.”  He knew that allowing Sam to be a part of his life for the next few weeks would cause him heartache in the future.



“What can we do together?”  He was pleased that Dean was finally allowing him some access to their baby.  He knew it was only a small concession on Dean’s part, but given time, Dean would allow him to get closer.



“I need to get some stuff for the baby.  In six weeks time I have another appointment at the doctors. You can come with me.”



“We can get started on the baby stuff tomorrow.  I have some money saved that we could use.”  Sam didn’t want their child to have a lifestyle that was funded entirely by stolen credit cards and hustled money.



“That money you have saved is for college.  You don’t have to worry about money for the baby.”



“We are not going to use fake credit cards and I know for damn sure you don’t have enough money to raise our child.”  He wasn’t going to allow Dean’s pride to stop him from providing for their child.



“When haven’t I made plans for things in life?  I have a savings account in the name of Dean Samuels.  In that account I have enough money to support us for the next few years.”



“How much money?”






He wasn’t going to waste time questioning Dean about the savings account. For the last few minutes, Dean had been reasonably calm and giving.  He didn’t want to ruin that.  Sitting down on the bed next to Dean, he asked.  “Do you know the baby’s gender?”



Smiling, despite the seriousness of the situation, he said, “It’s a boy.”



“A boy,” Sam said, repeating the information Dean had just told him.  Having a son was going to be such a handful.  A boy that inherited their looks, stubbornness, and intelligence was going to be hard.  It would also be worth it.



“Do you have any good names for a boy?” 


Dean wanted to enjoy this stress free moment with Sam.  He wanted to remember how Sam looked and acted in these moments because he knew it wouldn’t last. “Chad.”



“Do you want our son to have the same as every other kid?  How about Jack?” Sam offered. One of his friends in college was named Jack.  It was one that he liked.



“I can picture the name calling our son will get.    Do you want our son to be bullied?”



“Do you have any other suggestions?”






“Alexander is the name of a comic book villain.  Why choose that name?”



“It means defender.  With the life we lead, I want our son to have a little bit of added protection.    I know that the name won’t be as powerful as a protection spell, but…”



“It makes you feel better,” Sam finished.  “I like the name Alexander, but what do we choose for a middle name?”






Alexander Samuel Winchester sounds really good.”




Current Mood: busybusy
Isabel ~ El únicochavelaprincess on July 8th, 2009 09:24 am (UTC)
YAY! Update!!!!!!

And I LOVE the name they chose for their boy! Sweetness!!!!!!
claudia_lexanclaudia_lexan on July 8th, 2009 11:13 am (UTC)
Thank you. there won't be such a long break between the next update. I thought it would be nice to have at least some small bit of happiness in the this story.
AbbySN_24lover: Sad Sammysn_24lover on July 8th, 2009 11:19 am (UTC)
Oh I missed this story. Happy Update Dance!!! LOL

Glad that Dean is starting to let Sam help a little bit. And love the name for their son. :)

claudia_lexan: pic#57602812claudia_lexan on July 8th, 2009 11:32 am (UTC)
That nice, part of this story isn't going to last. Hopefully the next chapter should be posted tomorrow and it isn't good. I'm a little bit mean.
Rafaela Nevesrafa_spn_2008 on July 8th, 2009 08:19 pm (UTC)
I read this fic in fanfiction.net since the begginin, and i realy want know if you will continue the fic in here too???

claudia_lexanclaudia_lexan on July 9th, 2009 08:43 am (UTC)
I am continuing the fic on fanfiction.net as well. What I am doing is re-writing the whole fic.. I wasn't happy with how the original came across and after one bad review I decided it was better to re-write the whole fic. I have currently re-written 23 chapters and two new ones
Rafaela Nevesrafa_spn_2008 on July 9th, 2009 10:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the news.

I will read again.


gunznammo2gunznammo2 on July 8th, 2009 08:38 pm (UTC)
I've been enjoying your daddy Dean and (semi) helpful Sam. Every baby deserved parents that love him and one another. I'm looking forward to their journey down the road to fatherhood. Thanks
claudia_lexan: pic#77186678claudia_lexan on July 9th, 2009 08:43 am (UTC)
It's not going to be an easy road. but then a happy ending is never going to be a sure thing with these two
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claudia_lexan: pic#77186687claudia_lexan on July 10th, 2009 09:05 am (UTC)
Next chapter will be posted Saturday
Awenawennra on June 5th, 2011 12:40 pm (UTC)
Hope things get better!