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25 September 2008 @ 09:36 am
Author: [info]claudia_lexan
Fandom: Supernatural
Word Count: 1,803
Rating: PG-13
Notes: Thank you to my beta Mago186. Also, thank you for the suggestion about Sam putting Dean's car keys somewhere, other than his pocket
Notes: Crossver with the movie junior
Notes: This is set around the time that Sam decided that Stanford was a good thing.
Disclaimer: These are not characters of my own creation
Summary: After a curse and a night of sex with his brother Dean falls pregnant. Only Sam doesn't remember that night or the curse

part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 part 5 part 6 part 7 A part 7 B part 8 part 9 part 10 part 11a


Sam gave serious thought as to whether the dreams had given him the courage to visit Dean. He could tell himself that those dreams were just the encouragement he needed. The truth was that before those dreams, Dean had not been the person he loved. Even when he originally had his memories, he wasn’t fully committed to Dean. He still had every intention of going to college. “I would still be at Stanford.”

“How can we be a family when this isn’t what you want?” Dean asked.

“I do want a family. This is my chance to give our baby a normal childhood. I can show our baby things that I never got to see,” Sam insisted.

“This isn’t the chance to relive your childhood though my baby. I wanted to believe that you would accept this pregnancy. For one moment I thought things would be okay, but shit like that doesn’t happen to me.”

“Do you have to be so obstinate? I do want us to be a family, but I don’t our child to grow up the same way we did. I want our child to know what it is like to stay in a town or city for more than two months. I want our child to be able to put down some roots,” Sam said.

Dean wanted to scream out in frustration. Sam was so damn fixated on a normal life. What he wanted for their son’s future had not even been taken into consideration. He knew that Sam would never be able to understand that the supernatural would always be a part of their world. The supernatural wasn’t going to disappear because they were having a baby. The only problem he had was trying to get Sam to understand that. “Sam, there is not going to be a normal life with me or our child. The supernatural world isn’t going to fall into the background just because you want it to. Our child will become another person to kill. I want that normal family life, but it’s never going to happen.”

“Why do you have to be so cynical? Why can’t you just accept that we can have a normal family life?” Sam asked.

“Why do you have to be so naïve? You need to grow up Sam. It’s about time you realized that life doesn’t give you everything you want.”

“I just want us to be a regular family,” Sam said his voice taking on a soft, almost broken tone.

Sitting back down on the bed next to Sam, Dean wanted to find the words to reassure his little brother, but he couldn’t. Life with their baby would be hard. The demon that had made his pregnancy possible would be back. The yellow-eyed demon that had been his main reason for hunting would always be there too. “Maybe you should just go back to college.”

“I don’t want to,” Sam said, sounding at that moment like a small child who had been denied something.

“It doesn’t matter what you want Sam. This ideal you have of a family just doesn’t exist. You need to go back to college before you begin to get restless,” Dean said as he moved up the bed so that he could lean against the headboard.

“I can’t walk away from our child. I’m not going to be a bad parent,” Sam insisted.

Dean knew that it would be so simple to let Sam take over everything. For the next two months, he could just let Sam take care of him, but he wasn’t a person to take the easy route in life. The words he was about to say would hurt Sam, but that was the only way he could get Sam to leave him. He didn’t want his brother to leave, but the curse hadn’t been broken. He wasn’t going to let Sam into his life again when he had no idea how long Sam would be staying. “I don’t want you to be a part of our child’s life. I love you and despite what you keep telling me, I know you don’t feel the same. Being so close to you is uncomfortable because I know you’re here out of a fucked up sense of duty. If you stay, we will end up hating each other. Just leave Sam.”

With tears running freely down his face, Sam couldn’t hide his hurt at Dean’s words. He wanted a family with Dean, but Dean wasn’t making it easy. No suggestion he made was going to be accepted. Now Dean was being an asshole. Wiping the tears away from his eyes, he said, ”We have a baby that we made together. I have every god damn right to be here.”

“How are you going to explain those legal rights to a court of law? I can’t really see you being vindictive enough to expose our unique situation.”

“Why are you doing this?” Sam asked. He had always known that Dean could be stubborn, but this was stubbornness on a completely new level.

“It’s for the best,” Dean replied, hating the fact that he was beginning to sound like a character in a daytime soap opera.

“I don’t care what you think is for the best. I want to know the real reason why you have been pushing me away,” Sam demanded.

Rubbing a hand over his eyes in an effort to get the grit out, Dean said, “The curse is still in place. There are parts of our relationship that you will never remember. With that curse in place, any relationship we have will never work. That curse means that neither of us can be happy together.”

“How can you be sure? Maybe there is a loophole in this curse,” Sam said hopefully.

“Have you ever known a curse to have a loophole?” Dean asked.

Sam got up and walked round to the top of the bed where he sat down next to Dean. Placing a hand on Dean’s baby bump, he said. “This baby is a part of both of us. We can have a family together Dean, you just have to let me in.”

Dean placed his hand on top of Sam’s and took a few seconds to enjoy their shared warmth. For those few seconds he was happy and he could almost believe that everything would be okay. “No.”

“That is all you’re going to say to me? Dean, I deserve a chance. Please, at least take the night to think it over,” Sam pleaded.

“One night isn’t going to change how I feel. A relationship between us is never going to work. That family life you want doesn’t exist. It’s late Sam. I’m tired and you won’t be able to get a bus back to Stanford until the morning,” Dean said as carefully lowered himself further down on to the bed so that he was lying down.

“Thank you,” Sam said, grateful that Dean was giving him that extra time.

The reply he had expected from Dean never came. When he looked over to see why the older man was silent, he couldn’t help but smile. Dean was fast asleep. With a bounce to his step, Sam got off the bed and began to search for Dean’s car keys. He eventually found them on a small table that stood in the motel room’s crappy kitchen. It wasn’t exactly a kitchen; more like just a stove and a couple of cupboards. Stepping into the kitchen he put the cay keys in a cupboard. He knew that the chance of Dean leaving him was slim, but he wasn’t taking that chance. He then looked around the motel room Dean was staying in. It resembled a cheaper version of Bates Motel. That would be one of the first things he would change. Sitting back down on the bed, he took off his sneakers and laid down next to his brother. Moving so that he was lying on his side, he took his first real good look at an unguarded, pregnant Dean.

Pregnancy suited Dean. He place a hand on Dean’s baby bump, closed his eyes, and within moments, he was asleep.


Dean woke up with a sudden start. For a few seconds panic swept though him. In those few seconds, he couldn’t remember what had occurred in the last few hours. Then it all came flooding back. Sam had regained some of his memories and managed to find out where he was staying. He knew that the knowledge of his location had been given by Caleb. It meant that Caleb was no longer on the list of people he could trust.

As quietly, as he could manage, Dean got of the bed. He walked over to where he had left his car keys only to find them no longer there. Sam had obviously hidden his car keys to stop him from leaving, but Sam had obviously forgotten just how well prepared he was when it came to the Impala. He had a spare set of car keys that never left his side.

There was nothing he needed to take from the motel room. All of the important stuff was in the car. Taking one last look at Sam who was now hugging a pillow, he silently opened the door and left.

Sam had been half-asleep when Dean had got of the bed. He had listened to the sound of Dean moving around the motel room. He knew that Dean wouldn’t be able to leave as he had the car keys. He didn’t move when he heard the opening and closing of a door, so secure in the knowledge that Dean wouldn’t be able to leave him. It was only when he heard the distinctive rumble of the Impala’s engine that he had panicked. He quickly got of out of bed, ignoring his bare feet and rushed out of the motel room. He expected to see the taillights of the Impala in the distance but he didn’t. Dean was simply sitting there in his car.

Heart beating wildly, he raced over to the Impala and tried to pull the passengers door open, only to find it was locked, He then knocked on the window, only to have Dean to ignore him. He then kicked the door hard enough to be heard, but not hard enough to leave a dent. He knew that Dean would not hesitate to hurt him if he damaged the Impala. Kicking the car, however, did get Dean’s attention.

Dean turned to look at Sam and his heart ached for what he was about to do. He knew that he was all kinds of stupid to do this to the person he claimed to love. Placing a hand to his lips and then to his heart he drove away.

Current Mood: calmcalm
DeanLivesdeanlives on September 25th, 2008 09:53 am (UTC)
Oh I can't wait. I hope you update soon.
claudia_lexanclaudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 10:10 am (UTC)
Will hopefull be posting another update within a week.
marylizhmarylizh on September 25th, 2008 02:17 pm (UTC)
oh, no, no. You cant leave it there!!! Dang it, Dean!!!
claudia_lexan: pic#57603072claudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 02:42 pm (UTC)
They do work things out in the next couple of chapters, but like all things I tend to write with a supernatural mpreg, it doesn't last
marylizhmarylizh on September 25th, 2008 03:10 pm (UTC)
why does that scare me??
claudia_lexan: pic#57603072claudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 06:40 pm (UTC)
On the version I have posted on Fanfiction.net I'm positively evil when it comes to Dean. With this new and improved one on livejournal, I'm trying to be nice, but with a lot of angst
my_sam_deanmy_sam_dean on September 25th, 2008 02:19 pm (UTC)
The end to this update left me breathless. I can't wait until the next update. Somehow, Sam has to catch Dean so they can work this out.
claudia_lexan: pic#57603072claudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 02:43 pm (UTC)
I'm trying to write a story, where there is no quick fix. I don't want everything to be sorted out in a few chapters. For that reason this story will be long and different from the verison I currently have posted on fanfiction.net.
billysgirl5: Sam is not impressedbillysgirl5 on September 25th, 2008 03:19 pm (UTC)
I didn't like Dean very much in this chapter. Dean was being cruel, plain cruel. He can't fault Sam for not remembering what all happened between them. Sam is regaining some of his memories...whose to say he won't remember everything? At least Sam was willing to try. Dean's too worried about getting hurt again. He's not taking into consideration Sam's feelings for the child (who won't know his/her other parent). Like I said, Dean was just cruel.
claudia_lexanclaudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 06:44 pm (UTC)
It was my intention for Dean to come across as less than nice to Sam. Usually in most stories Dean protects his brother and gives in far to easily. I wanted Dean to still believe that he had to do this without Sam's help. The curse hasn't been broken . That means any relationship he will have with Sam won't last. So his being cruel to save himself some future heartache
idiot4deanidiot4dean on September 25th, 2008 06:01 pm (UTC)
Knew the meeting wouldn't end well but that had my heart jumping all over the place. Not sure who I feel sorry for!!! They both were too stubborn and not trying to compromise. I can understand Dean's concerns and Sam wanting normal doesn't help. Sam was making plans without even considering Dean as part of the set up even though he's the one having the baby. Unfortunately for Dean he told Sam where the doctors are, so he won't get rid of Sam that easily.

Looking forward to more.
claudia_lexan: pic#57603128claudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 06:49 pm (UTC)
Sam does catch up with Dean in two chapters Time. Both of them will realize how stubborn they have been, and have that little bit of happiness As the curse hasn't been broken, and only one of them can be happy, it's not going to end well.
I suffer from Kane-Carlson-Ackles-Padalecki-itis: Dean girl-MINE-j2_babygirl86gilesgirl on September 25th, 2008 06:45 pm (UTC)










claudia_lexan: pic#77186678claudia_lexan on September 25th, 2008 06:51 pm (UTC)
I do promise that although I am slightly more veil, it does get better eventually
I suffer from Kane-Carlson-Ackles-Padalecki-itisgilesgirl on September 25th, 2008 07:16 pm (UTC)

Okay. ;)
claudia_lexan: pic#77186678claudia_lexan on September 26th, 2008 07:55 am (UTC)
sorry I meant to say evil. Both of the boys do suffer, Dean even more than Sam, but I'm trying to work towards that happy ending
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claudia_lexanclaudia_lexan on September 26th, 2008 07:56 am (UTC)
It will be another two chapters posted at the same time again. Chapter 12 is short, but 13 is where the boys work out a compromise
Christineserneera on September 26th, 2008 08:40 am (UTC)
Oh dean and poor sam

can't wait for a update
claudia_lexan: pic#77186524claudia_lexan on September 26th, 2008 11:24 am (UTC)
should be updated within a week. I'm aiming to update on a regular basis
wicca_faith_fiwicca_faith_fi on September 27th, 2008 01:00 pm (UTC)
oh wow. These last two chapters have been truly brilliant. I love that when Sam came back Dean didn't just give in. Sam is a real jerk sometimes and I relally love Dean. xxx
claudia_lexanclaudia_lexan on September 27th, 2008 02:09 pm (UTC)
They do come to a sort of an agreement about the baby in Chapter 13, but the happiness doesn't last. I didn't want this chapter to be about Dean giving into every demand Sam made, as it wouldn't have been very realistic. Sam does get even more horrible to Dean in the coming chapters, but all of that suffering makes for a happy-ish ending
yonkyuyonkyu on October 2nd, 2008 03:16 am (UTC)
I loved your updates. I am really liking this story and I feel bad for both. I like how Dean is trying his best to stand up for him self and the baby. I know they have a long way to go for things to get fixed. I just hope that the curse get broken and they can be civil to one another. Even though I wish for them to be happy together and a happy family in the end, but I don't think that is where the end will go. Awesomeness, I love it.
claudia_lexan: pic#57602945claudia_lexan on October 2nd, 2008 09:19 am (UTC)
In the version of this story I have posted on fanfiction.net the curse does eventually get broken, but there are severe consequences. I am aiming for an ending that is happy for at least one of them. Be that Dean, the baby or Sam. I don't want to turn this story into something where everyone gets that happy ever after, because that just doesn't happen in real life.
AbbySN_24lover: Sad Deansn_24lover on February 13th, 2009 11:36 pm (UTC)
Totally crying now. **sniff**
claudia_lexan: pic#77186524claudia_lexan on February 14th, 2009 01:19 pm (UTC)
there is going to be a need for so much more crying. I will be making poor Dean suffer, why make things all happy. With this story it's angst all the way at the moment
Awenawennra on June 5th, 2011 12:16 pm (UTC)
OH Dean, I want him to give Sam a chance! I want them to be happy together!!