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06 February 2007 @ 03:26 pm

Title: Forgive
Fandom: csi:  Miami, ER
Characters: Ryan Wolfe, Eric delko and Ray Barnett
Prompt: 02 Forgive
Word Count: 288
Rating: PG-13
Summary: In the end he had seven months of life
Disclaimer: Not my characters

I want to tell Ray that it doesn’t matter.  I need to tell him that it doesn’t hurt anymore and he shouldn’t be scared for me.  When I was first diagnosed with cancer, we both believed it could be beaten.  We had gone though sop many trails as a couple.  One of the main trails was my family disowning me when I told them about Ray.  I went though months of treatment with Ray by my side.  He was a constant source of support and comfort.

When we received the terrible news, the cancer was terminal I couldn’t cry.  I couldn’t allow myself to break down over something I was unable to prevent.  I had to be strong for Ray.  The doctors told me I had six months left to live.  Six months to get my life in order.  Six months to make sure Ray would be well looked after hen I died.  Together we planned my funeral.  A funeral that I wanted to be full of colour. 

I contacted Eric after not speaking to him for two years.  I filled him in on all the news and dropped the bombshell news I had just six months left to live.  I asked Eric to look after Ray when I died.  We had a good long conversation and finally re-connected.  Eric promised to look after Ray.  My mind was finally at ease knowing that Ray would be looked after when I was gone.

In the end, the doctors got it wrong.  I had eight months.  Eight months to spend with Ray and my friend.  At the end, Ray was with me.  I wanted to tell him not to grieve but death took me before the word could be spoken.

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